Thursday, September 30, 2010

Day 10.

And... more doodling today.
Maybe all the de-stressing yesterday allowed me to have a clear mind today, but nothing really jumped into my head when I opened my journal. And that means, I think, that journaling is helping! Huzzah!
Journaling also lets me take a break from my homework and think about things that may be more important- my health, for example. However important the homework may be at the time, my stress levels and emotional health is way more important to me, and I'm glad that journaling is helping relieve my tension.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Day 9.

I've been having a lot on my mind recently, so I wrote a humongous post in my journal- 6 pages to be exact. I usually don't try to write so much, but today I just had so much on my mind that I had to get it all out somehow.
Perhaps the reason I wrote so much is because I didn't really talk about this issue with my friends today, and because I had a lack of venting there, I needed it pour it all out into writing.

Also- is it just me, or is it kind of strange that I'm both journaling my thoughts into a book and my progress onto a blog? I'm, like, double blogging each day.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Day 8.

Today I tried something different, and instead of venting I just drew. It was incredibly relaxing for me, let me be creative, and instead of working to solve my problems, it let me take my mind off of everything for a while.
I think it's important to have doodling days because I shouldn't constantly be worrying, and doodling really allows me that.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Day 6.

More journaling today.
Even though today wasn't really filled with anything stressful or energy-consuming (probably because it's a Saturday), I used today's journal page to express some of my overall concerns with my life rather than the day-to-day stressors.
Unfortunately, journaling about them seems to make me even more stressed out. When I journal about things that are stressing me in a moment, it helps because I can write out my frustrations. With this kind of journaling, however, it's more like bringing up all my stresses that I keep hidden- and that worries me.
Is this a good thing or a bad thing? I have yet to see....

Friday, September 24, 2010

Day 5.

I lied, and started journaling today.
It was actually very helpful- I saw results today which is good, because I'm an "instant gratification" kind of person. I've previously been a very bad journaler- I would write for a couple of days and then stow it away somewhere never to be found again... so I used an old journal that I had made last year.
I enjoyed this much more than the meditation, probably because I feel like I always need to be doing something and writing fits the bill (more than meditation). It also allowed me to think about my problems and vent about them, something really cathartic for me.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Day 3.

After three days of meditation, I'm trying to figure out whether or not it's really helping my stress levels. So far, it seems as though I have something distracting me from truly concentrating on meditation, whether it be work or sleep or fun, and that's impeding my stress-relieving progress!
However, in a discussion with one of my friends, she mentioned journaling as a great stress reliever- instead of just trying to clear your mind for a bit through meditation, you can put your thoughts and distractions (and stresses) onto paper and that helps you cope with your problems.
I think, maybe this weekend after Week 1 of this OLE is over, I will begin to journal in addition to my meditation.
That way I can fight my stresses by voicing them and figuring out ways to avoid them (or even just letting them out- that always helps!) and then meditating after I've put out everything that was previously holding my mind.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Day 2.

Things are still a little hazy.
Today was an incredibly hectic day- I had piano lessons for an hour after school, and then went to record music for a college CD at church just an hour after. My mind was so hyped up for these events that I was really emotionally tired afterward. I was exhausted from the hour and a half of performing and recording, and when I got home I still had a bunch of homework left.
Today's problem for meditation wasn't so much distraction as it was the want for sleep. I can't say that I get 9 or 10 hours of sleep each day, so the lack of full sleep combined with my hectic schedule really made it hard to sit for 20 minutes with my eyes closed, concentrating.
I just wanted to sleep, and several times I found myself drifting off and I would jerk awake, only to remember I was supposed to be concentrating on my breath.
This hasn't happened before while I was meditating, so I'll have to work on doing this stress reliever at a different time of the day, preferably when I'm not so tired!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Day 1.

Meditation is hard.
I enjoyed it during our block period's practice, but I'm not even sure how long that was. For someone who is constantly out and about, working, being distracted, doing things- twenty minutes is a long time.
I tried so hard to center myself, to concentrate on just my breath, but my mind kept wandering to the time and my work. The first five minutes I really felt in control of myself, but twenty minutes of "just sitting" was disconcerting for my body; it had no idea what I was doing.
However, it did help me to calm myself down, clear my head from the stress of school (even if just for a short time), and let me take a deep breath before starting the rest of my work.
I'm going to continue meditating each day for this amount of time in the hopes that my body will get used to that relaxation and will look forward to the time I have for myself each day.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Game Plan.

Life is stressful, everyone knows that.
You go through periods of life that are less stressful, some that are more, but unfortunately, that stress will always be there. And even more unfortunately, this school year is the most stressful year I've experienced in my life. There are college applications, loads of homework each night, not to mention trying to keep up with friends and family!
This project should (hopefully) help me find outlets for that stress and find successful ways to keep myself and my mind healthy.

PLAN 9/19: Meditate for 20 minutes each day.